October 15th is National pregnancy and infant loss awareness day.

Head up to the NICU weather isn’t very bad yet, today was supposed to be the worst part.  Yesterday was worse.  Forecast says worst part is between 1600 and 2100.

26% oxygen this morning.

Nurse today is a primary!

She tells us he had one big event requiring being neopuffed. The rest were smaller. 

Cares,  temp 36.8, pooped a small amount! He had two last night also!

His bed is made with an adorable blanket we were given, goes well with his other blankets and fits right in with his style, anchors and his name is embroidered on it too!  Wearing a cute blue onsie to match!

We swap to nasal prongs. He calms down fairly quick. Binky time,  and talk to him, he gives us some good smiles,  it is very impressive he  still gets happy and has no aversion to binkys or milk swabs.  But I guess to him all he knows is what he has experienced so it’s the little things that keep the boy happy, most things probably seem pretty awesome to him compared to the bad times he has had.

Lunch.

Back to NICU.

No skin to skin chairs, they are all taken. We will do it late.

1400, normal cares.  Binky time with feeding as usual. He seems to be more awake,  like he knows the routine that normally its skin to skin time.

Albuterol is canceled.  Dr. thinks he might not need it anymore.

1700, normal cares swap top nasal mask. Skin to skin. Its bright out the window, sun shines through the rolling clouds

About 30 minutes into skin time he coughs,  30 seconds later he brady desats.

The nurse turns him over on me.  I make a good table. She Neopuffs him to get him back up.  Another nurse comes to assist.  The position I’m in,  I can’t see any of his stats.  Just his color,  it’s changing.  Must be a low spo2.

He feels apnic not taking good breaths. I give him some stim and encourage him to breathe.

Heart rate into the 70’s spo2 into the 30s.
He comes back up,  we reposition him. He is wiggly now.

After a while he settles down and is out, pretty deep sleep.

Weather picks up slightly.  But calms again after 30 minutes.

They have a thing in the hallway for  National pregnancy and infant loss awareness and hand out candles at 1900. We put one on our windowsill

(they are electric no we can’t have fire next to the pure oxygen coming out of the wall connections)

Pass down.

A primary nurse tonight!

2000 put him back from skin to skin. He is relaxed.  Temp,  36.9 just pee. Swap back to nasal prongs.

I pick a couple of my stray chest hairs off of him. He almost ate one of them.

Swaddle him up.

He is pretty sleepy,  short binky time. Say our goodnight, then let him sleep.

See you tomorrow.

Walk home is not bad considering it is supposed to be the worst storm Seattle has seen in 54 years. Pretty normal,  just a light drizzle.  Not much wind.

Maybe it will hit later? Or hopefully it missed us.

Love you RT.

Someone recently asked if I ever thought I would openly talk about poop as much as I do now.

Nope and I didn’t think I would ever be as stressed when my child doesn’t,  and excited as I have been when he does!